12-19-03

well, here it is, another christmas season.

this is what i told eboz yesterday: "when i slow down, i get so god-f___ lonely." there seems to be a price one pays for freedom. i was talkin' to a buddy yesterday who is right now going thru divorce and we were discussing this issue.

on the one hand, there's the drive to get on the road w/ the music; on the other hand, there's the drive to get settled w/ a partner.

both ways have their good and bad points i guess. right now i'm geared for the former path, and it's wearin' on me.

the band groovin ground is in a serious transition. "...this is serious...", to quote a silly, little rap rhyme the fellas came up w/ at band camp...

band camp... now, that was somethin'. me and the boys of groovin ground holed-in for a solid 4 or 5 days here at glaxor haus and wrote a set of ~20 songs/pieces. i guess i could say that it would be nice to settle down w/ someone after such an undertakin', but i've none like that. such is my dilemma, and the price for freedom.

so, a choice is soon-approaching, and i feel the pull of moving on again... in the immortal words of allen choo, "see what happen..."